((((((Cyn)))))))

You are giving yourself that chance. Getting started on the meds is the first step. They won't make it all better, but they will help you as daml and Lisa said.

You didn't do anything wrong or do anything to deserve to feel this way, and you can and *will* feel better.

You've gone through so much and been so strong for so long. Not just for you, but for your kids too. You put so much energy into trying to help your dso and trying to get him better and do the "right' thing to get him back. You have to be so tired.

It is truly time to think about *you*. You deserve to find happiness. It may not be with him, but that is not your fault.

Please, please hang in there. Keep on the meds, and talk to a therapist so they can help you sort through all of this.

Everyone here is behind you 110%