thank you for all the support. I am trying to continue, it is so hard when all i see is the neg. now, cant remember at times why i started the fight and if it is worth it, then have days where i sink into such a deep dark place and feel so empty and alone without him. There continues to be talk of returning, but it is only ever talk. He and i talked a couple of weeks ago about his return, the timeline is coming close. I just dont understand the seperation still, things go so well, and he is doing better as well, so why be apart. I just cant seem to keep the steam, I am tired of being my own cheerleader, tired of getting up in the morning, going thru my entire day, dealing with life in general. I continue to take the med, upped the dose this morning to 20mg..waiting to see if anything helps. I am not seeing a coun. i got the rx when i went in for my check up. I am just hoping and waiting for all the obsessive thoughts and anxiety about my dh to stop or at least get to the point that i can control it.