Want to thank everyone for caring. I'm trying to keep going. Been in very bad health this week and haven't been on. I'm sinking, can feel it-dont know why. Its an emptiness, a hollow feeling that i can physically FEEL. Its all new, at times the feeling is welcomed, i dont care about anything, at other times i shake my head like i'm trying to put what is loose back in place..i know that this isn't me. I just cant find me right now. I cant be that caring and loving, mother, friend, spouse, daughter, etc. I cant be anything to anyone right now, there are no feelings for anything or anyone including myself. I am trying. I am still taking the lexapro, at times feel there may be an improvement from the anxiety i had felt, other times there is a blind panic and i still cant turn it off. Have been having distrubing dreams about myself, health related, not sleeping well-up till 3 a.m. most nights. I cant break the cycle. I've been in home on bed rest since sometime sunday night for health stuff, finally up and around. I should be returning to work tommorrow. I should also be feeling better, i am physically i think, but there is just nothing, i am not happy, i am not scared, i'm not anything right now-just a nothing.