then the question isn't about making plans...it is about all the other stuff in between...
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... and I find myself grieving the loss of all our hopes, dreams, plans... even the connection we once shared. Where has it all gone???


Maybe it is time to try to find a new connection, not built on the past one...built on the here and now? No, things will not ever be the same...but, today is today and tomorrow we hope for.
One of the biggest obstacles that get in the way of our lives is 'Expectations'...we had plans, so we expect those plans to pan out...we had a specific type of relationship, and we hadn't planned on it changing...
Expectations can be as detrimental as the depression itself...IMHO...because we can't see what we have, the good stuff, and only see what is missing...or what is bad.

With each day we have to take 'what is' and make it work for us...not wake up and say, 'I expect this...and only this will do'.
I can hope and expect the change in my loves drinking...but, I have to be realistic as well. It is today that matters, not what he did last night, nor what he may do tonight...we have to enjoy what is right now...and even if it isn't what we want or expected in our lives, we need to find the good from it...or we will always be disapointed in our life.