So that is the "canned" response in that this is what my wife says when I define the "not in love" thing, "This is the depression talking"....

What is a D to do? The "Depression talking" phrase is very invalidating to me. The depression is a part me, it may never go away. This is how I feel, I andthe depression within me. What am I suppose to do? Am I not to be taken seriously? If I don't say that and say the other expected loving things then I'm told that is me talking and the depression has subsided. But...I get more depressed when I lie about my feelings to my SO and to myself. Am I becoming something that I don't want to be, by lying? Is the answer to take more drugs so that my SO can get her desired response?

I got to work from somewhere and that means I operate with depression. I am drowning in the "depression talking" accusation phrase. It is made as if what I am saying is not real. Although the depression and I can go down to the court house to file for a divorce. Is that the "depression talking"? Does it mean that action is not real? The court system will not proceed in that light and a divorce can become very REAL.

I'm stuck. I'm not trying to hurt someone. I'm not trying to have fun with this. I'm not trying to play games. I'm trying to be true to my SO. I'm trying to be true to myself. I'm struggling...