Thank you very much for a glimpse into this dark world that people with D live in. Each little bit of information that I acquire helps me (a fallout sufferer) to understand the beast (D) a little more.


"Anger makes me feel like Im in a normal state. Anger seems to be my default emotion. Such power and fury the anger flows forward. Verbal abuse streams forth. Terrible things are said. Curse words are intertwined. Nothing is held back. Words and sentences I do not even mean lash out toward my target."

I had a feeling that my DW's verbal attacks on me were done as a release for her and not something that she wanted to do. This must make her feel as though she has gained some control in an uncontrollable situation. I just need to grow a thicker skin and learn how to react better to these attacks.

Ian