So when the D is at a controllable level, do you look back and see or understand what you have done when D?

e.g. if it is an EA or slacking off at work that cost the company lost of $'s, lied and betrayed your spouse, do you look back and see what you have done and want to make amends for it?

What I am struggling with DH at the moment is apparently his D is at about a 7-8 out of 10. I can see he is alot better. Doing lots of cooking, lots of spending, lots of hobbies, lots of just going for a drive, lots of ............ lots of.............

He seems manic now however not with me, with eveyone else he is so UP but with me it is 'still not felling anything'

He has gone away for two weeks to 'clear his mind', I live in hope the H i know returns (dreaming aren't I?)