livs2laff,

All very good questions. Have you read the first topic (not this one which is Part 2) titled "Want to know what depression is like?" The link is included below.

See link:
p078.ezboard.com/fdepress...1377.topic

The very first post I made, on 10/14/05, should answer these questions. If not, let me know and I'll do my best to explain.