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There were times I wished that I had never met my wife. I was angry and resentful of what she had become and what she had done to me. I felt abandoned, neglected and wanted the envisioned peace that was my fantasy.


I wish I could say I've grown and become a better person from my experience with my DH, but I'm stuck in the place quoted above. I'm so resentful and lonely and angry that I can't seem to move beyond it. I know I contribute to the problems, but voicing my legitimate issues, whether calmly or at the top of my lungs, brings the same response--rage, curses, name-calling, physical violence. I just want peace and calm and clean. Even though I know I should work on myself, I'm just too angry and resentful to get motivated to do it. So I'm still who I was two years ago at the first MDE--except considerably heavier, which gives DH even more ammo.