I remember one of my worst moments. I was driving the 70 miles to the psychiatric hospital where my wife was being treated. My entire life was upside down and the burden of dealing was overwhelming. My mind was racing with all the things that I needed to do when the phrase, "Let go, and let God" popped into my head. I had one of my short moments of prayer and told God: "This one is beyond my control. I can't handle it on my own." I felt a calm I needed. Whether it was divine or not, it was a moment when I let a burden go. While I was struggling to handle everything and seek immediate solutions, there was so much beyond my control. I needed to accept this and focus on myself.

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I cannot let go of him because the past that put us together for some reason keeps haunting me.


And what terrible thing have you done that mandates you are haunted by your past? Love someone? Cared and sought their companionship? Shared some dreams? Failed to cure their depression? Failed yourself because you should have known? Failed because you know their is some key to all of this and it has to be there?

I've wrote before that I feel the bond of love can't be broken. I know that some may not feel this way, but I do. Whatever happens and wherever we go, we are tied and must learn to accept it isn't bad unless we are selfish with our heart. It may mean we have to live without our love for a short time, or forever, but the bond is still there. It's hard to be patient, but it's necessary. It's hard to focus on yourself, when you feel you really should be doing something for the love of your life.