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It sounds so hard to be so far away from home, not being able to see family or close friends while dealing with it all. Do you guys have any action plans on how you would like to proceed with your relationship? Maybe it's some of the uncertainty that is still hard on you, and if you actually had something concrete like a timeline, it can help to make you feel better. The power of having something to look forward to can really make all the difference in your outlook on things. I know you have long breaks, but that may not be enough to look forward to right now...he is your husband, after all.

Hope you're feeling better after cleaning! It would probably be even better to take a long, relaxing bath afterwards to unwind...