Hey Jen, as you know, I can totally empathize. It makes absolutely no sense that it's even tougher on us when things are going well, but I think it's so much easier to miss what was / what could be when we get little glimpses of it, which are then pulled away. BUT you will see him this weekend, enjoy every minute of that visit, and know that you are doing great - not just in your own situation, but in being a tremendous support for others on this board (like me!!!).