Lynne....
think about it.....
really really think about it..

does your life really suck right now.. ??
You could afford a new hair colour... you have a job.. (yep.. we all hate our jobs alot of the time)
You were able to afford to christmas shop.. thats a pretty cool thing..

I know Im sounding sarcastic here... BUT... really... I dont think your life is so bad..
In everyones life there is always going to be something that sucks.. or is stressing them out... that is how LIFE IS!
those who seem to have the perfect life.. are NOT DEALING if u ask me!

Lynne .. be thankful for the things you have.. focus on them..
be thankful that you have food to eat that would make you put on a pound or two. or three or four.. (stop sweating the small stuff!)
Be thankful you have a job that can allow you to buy PAS .... chrissie pressies... go bar hopping... and eat thanksgiving dinner..

As for the trust issues... keep working on yourself.. wade thru your crap thats deep inside.. and slowly but surely you will feel better...

huggs ..
Ange

Take  what  you  need . . .  leave  the  rest .Blue_butterfly