Before the meds I got nothing, but after them it is much better. He does see what this is doing to me and our relationship. And, he does feel bad about everything. I get "I'm sorry" a lot, however, it would be nice to hear that he realizes how lucky he is that I stuck by him through this...even after the affair. To know that he is appreciative of me sticking by him. Those are the things that I am still waiting to hear. I just wonder how long I'll be waiting.