Wow! I have experience depression all my life, however, 24 years ago I started my first counseling and I can tell you, the past 22 years have been radically different, especially since going on meds. I also married a depressive and until just this minute I have felt confused about his behaviours since my depression feels so very different. I can and do feel, but I do have a strong desire to be alone. I can only "handle" my family for limited periods of time, but at least I do feel. I can remember good memories, but very few prior to the age of 19. But since, my life if full of wonderful memories. Reading your post reminded me how far I have come and that depression can be managed. I finally realize why our depressions are so different, because I seem to be able to manage mine and DH has not figured out how.

You are very courageous to share this. Thank you!