the talk was more of the same stupidity.  Him blaming me for everything.  He's faultless.  Would you believe one of my great transgressions was that I read in the bathtub????  WTF?  Or that afterwards I would sit on the couch w/him and page a magazine (mind you, he was on the laptop).  However, I think the most priceless, hurtful thing from this encounter was him telling me that he should have never married me because he knew he couldn't have a DOG if he did (I'm phobic of them).  Yep, dog trumps loving wife.  Oh, and our wedding ceremony was another issue because I excluded his family because we decided to have a very small ceremony w/just immediate family and some of his family felt it wasn't worth coming to if they couldnt come to the ceremony.  Of course you already know that he never said boo about our wedding and in fact wrote his family a letter defending our choice to do our wedding this way.  I'm sorry, but to have my wedding thrown in my face like that was beyond cruel.

Also, during the talk he would spin off into normal husband mode and tell me a funny, unrelated story about something normal, and then back to the tirade.  He tried to talk about splitting up and I just kept repeating I wouldn't do that until we had all his physical results back (brain MRI, blood work).  All he kept saying was that there was nothing wrong w/him physically and I by saying there was I am discounting what he is saying.

There is no winning here.  I could actually see all his confusion play thru this talk when he looked like he was ready to say ok, I'll try and then it was back to, nope I want out.

Lord, I just want my real husband back and I'm afraid that isn't going to happen.  He's got it in his head that I'm the cause of all his unhappiness and he'll push me away just like he did his parents and sister.  I can't believe this is happening to my life.  I am such a logica, fix-it, problem solving kind of girl and not being able to make that work here is so frustrating.  I am so heartbroken, angry, confused and scared.