Shattered,

He hasn't been treating me like anything actually...

Thanks for the words Ange and Ker, I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. I'm actually calling a therapist today because I have issues that I realize I need to address on my own if DH and I are ever to get back together. I just hope that I didn't get to the point where DH is so fed up that he won't go to counseling like we originally agreed to do. I would hope that he would show the level of compassion and forgiveness I've shown over the past 15 years.

I have apologized, repeatedly. I'm just hoping he believes me.