All of that makes a lot of sense, Ange. As always. I also used to compare the Pre-D him to the D-him and tell him about it. I just feel so betrayed and confused. If he wanted to date other people, why didn't he just tell me? Was he using his D as an excuse to end our relationship? I asked him a few weeks ago why he had a dating profile up if he didn't want to be in a relationship, and he said it was because he wanted a distraction from all the bad things happening in his life right now.

It's just not fair. We're the ones that have done the work learning about their illness. Reassuring them. Doing the best we can to be loving and understanding, even when they're spitting bile. And someone else gets the good stuff. But I guess D isn't fair, is it?