I know Klynn, I had hoped I could remain that hope for you and newbies on here with so many questions. But alas, the D wins! I'm sure he'll have a change of heart in a couple days. He always does. But because he's on less meds, instead of more, I'll have a volatile marriage from here on out. Not what I want. Today's appointment was my only saving grace. And even if he freaks out when I say I'm really done, he'll just get on the right meds and then change his mind a year from now. It's a pattern. I keep seeing it. It's not changing. Thank you for the kind words though. Helps! Especially when my DH is yelling at what a horrible nagging wife I am. I guess because I wanted a husband who didn't curse at me? 

Ghada, I do have a few leads on work. So we'll see. If not, I'll hit the pavement hard. Hard in this economy. But I know there's jobs out there, and I have many years of great experience. So I'll make it happen. And yes, loved to find out he had changed meds without saying anything! Why did he even bother going today? He knew I said he wasn't doing well on the meds he was on and needed to increase them during the holidays. But he went today any way. I'm not sure why! He wasn't as violent today as he's been, when he's off meds. Today was mostly just slamming his fists into the wall. But it was enough to remind me of what it can be. The scary thing is when I've ever been ready to leave before, he gets scary violent. And brings our son into it by saying, ask mommy why she wants me to move out. It's horrid. That's my fear. He tries to hurt our son emotionally cause he's in so much pain. I fear for that. 

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