Well RC, you're a saint for staying. I think I'm turning in my saintydom. I just can't take the going off the meds, then apologizing after they've caused so much turmoil. It's just not normal! And so unhealthy! I can't be yelled at and called horrid things when all I've done is stand by him. I hate to think I'm going to walk away, mostly for our son. But I just can't do it. I feel like screaming to my DH, you won! You've gotten me to leave! I'm sure this is what you've wanted! But in reality, I know it's not. But I can't take not knowing who I'm married to, or if we're going to be loving this week or not. It's just old.