Thanks Ange. Don't worry, I'm not making any big decisions. I can't. I don't have a job. So I have to find one first before I even decide what I want to do. And my DH will probably apologize in a couple days any way. I just know how I feel. And I can't do this every year, every holiday. And if he's "weening" him on less meds, by next year he'll probably be off them completely. That's how our marriage started, and it was horrid. I've seen it when it's bad. And I'm not staying for that. But believe me, no big decisions.