Well, he had his round of STD testing today, so far, all negative. Have to wait on the chlamydia, but he's treated himself for it so many times I'm certain it is negative. My turn is next week. Neither of us have any symptoms of anything, so I'm guessing we're both negative.

He still maintains he never had sex with her, that it was an elaborate fantasy and I caught it took quick for him to make any real moves. Usually, in order to get any information out of him, I have to have hard and fast proof of whatever it is. I use the analogy of holding a gun to his head - if I don't have hard proof, he won't tell me anything, if I've got proof, he'll tell me- at least as much as he thinks he needs to to get the heat off of him. I've got to stop my snippy comments though. He came in the other morning to just be with me a few minutes before he left for his morning workout, (he is sleeping in the guest room per my request) I had to ruin it by asking him the question that was running through my head "did you buy condoms?!" I've been waking up so upset in the mornings, I feel sick to my stomach, and I've always cooked up some new question about "her" and his attempted affair. He said he hadn't bought any, that it was just a fantasy...then he walked away... Funny thing is, usually I run after him, demanding he answer my questions, I don't often let him walk away until I feel like I've gotten an answer (there are MY control issues hard at work!) - but lately, when he walks away, I let him go. I've never done that before.

We had lunch today, he seemed distant at times, and a bit grumpy, but he agreed to have lunch with me anyway, and HE chose a restaurant - which he can never seem to make up his mind (about anything!!) to do. We are going out for our usual date night tomorrow night, something I decided I wanted to try. We'll see how it goes, I just need to control my mouth a bit and not be snippy toward him about "her" and all of our current struggles. Maybe, just maybe, we can talk about something else for a few hours. Wish me luck.