Made it through the holidays, but I am beginning to think she has stopped taking her meds again.  What do I do, start counting pills?  I normally pick up her prescriptions, but just realized its been a month or two since she renewed. 

I was so happy the holidays did not result in a meltdown, I guess I let my guard down.  I assumed we were about to enter a long smooth period again.  Then over the past week all the little issues began to pop up.  Everything I do is wrong.  I cook dinner and it is not what she wants to eat.  I fix her a plate of food and it is either way too much or not enough on the plate.  The computer is back in her lap and she is lost in Facebook. The computer seems to follow her everywhere all over the house. 

It gets so old wondering what will be the next thing I do wrong.  It seems like once we start this, a major episode is about to blow.  We are back to where everything has to be in its exact assigned spot or she gets really upset.  I do my best not to argue with her when she gets like this, but it results in me just not talking.  Which also makes her mad.  She complains about everything I do. 

I am so tired of the merry-go-round that my life has turned into.  The sad part is in some ways she is just repeating the way her parents talk to each other.  She hate to hear them talk to each other like they do, but when she does it to me its OK.  I am back to wondering how bad it would be to accept a job out of the area and just move away.   Divorce is basically out of the questions, appearances are all that matter to her.  So if I am working 600 miles away and living there, its ok.  It will look ok to the public.

I know most likely no one will read this comment, but at least I can let off a little steam on this website and move on with my like.   smiley: indifferent