You know Jess, I think what's happened is that ALL of this has happened so quickly, my feelings and brain are still playing catchup.

I am looking at the calendar and it has only been 7 weeks since I woke up with an alien beside me suddenly spouting all this "need to be alone, don't know if I love you, but yes I do, but need to end the relationship" blah, blah talk. It was quite a shocker, as we were planning a future together even the night before. I still wake up alone in the morning and think..."what?". It's been one FAST rollercoaster ride. Future stopped, Christmas ruined, vacation cancelled, trust broken, feelings of betrayal.

Since the Great Declaration last week, I've sort of just been sitting with it. I do love him but also feel that I've come out the other side of a meat grinder. Maybe parts of me need to process all of this before I can decide which fork in the road to take.