Thank you to both of you!
At a time where my head feels like it will explode, feedback from people who understand is so appreciated.

Soopermama, you are so right. Boundaries. I know that i need them, but i find it so hard to establish them, to maintain them. I have even reading the book "Boundaries in Marriage", all makes so much sense. Yet, I admit to having my own issues, and insecurities I need to work through myself. This is an area that i need to improve.

I found out tonight, that he has been lying, and hanging out with another woman. I had suspected something was up, he's been secretive, things are not adding up, but found out today after sneaking into his fb account. I am terrible I know.

I feel crushed, 9 months of being there all the way, helping him, supporting him, mentally and financially, surprising him with little things, helping his mom, trying to make his life easier, and this is what happens. This man who has always had so much integrity, who'd never give me reason to suspect anything, is blatantly lying to me. I don't know what is going on there, friends or more, but the betrayal has got me feeling mad and crazy.

I don't understand why he even still reaches out to me, why does he even still care, why does he stick around then???

My head is spinning, my anxiety is rising. Dunno what to do.







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