Thank Dazed- I hear what you're saying.

I have moved on to some degree. I still see my friends, joined a gym for the first time in my life, got back to being in my community supported agriculture group, and even in the process of getting caught up in my taxes.

Thing is, although intellectually I feel as if I'm moving forward, there's still this....I don't know exactly how to explain it....heavy weight in my heart. I've tried to figure this out in therapy, but nothing exactly rings true. I know I am grieving the loss of my husband still- both in terms of losing him to depression and losing him wanting to be my husband anymore. But 5 months later, I still feel paralyzed to free my heart from this weight. I feel I have made very little progress since he has moved out.

I know....none of this makes sense. And the silly cliche of day by day has turned into month by month. Very frustrating.

Thanks for listening