Thank you so much for your support! I have looked over those two posts, both before and after writing this one, and they've been very helpful. I guess the real question I had was that given our complicated history, should I still stick around, and could we ever make it work. It was really good for me to write this last night because I just typed and typed and typed, and a lot of my bad energy came out. This message board is brilliant, and you are all so wonderful.