Erin 68 -Thank you for your kind words of support. They were well received.

It's been 5 months since my separation and i was feeling so proud of myself for how far I had progressed, and then today- KABOOM.

When I have to seriously ask myself "what's in this for me?," - well, let's just say that I can't think of a bigger sign then to just move on.

And I mean....move on. Not go through the mental gymnastics to figure out what my poor depressed husband is going through. Not being this benevolent martyr that will stand by his side, gaining knowledge and trying to understand. Not be this willing victim on the road to no where.

Just move along little doggie....move along.

If I don't, then I'm gonna start buying tickets on the bitter bus, and I soooo don't want to go there.

Life ain't over....just any chance of getting back with my husband is.