Oh Alicea, I still have my bad days believe me, at my age this will happen because the life behind you is probably longer than whats ahead, but it is possible to do it, he has dumped me twice and there will not be a third time, so I have ruled out the friendship thing and thats the end of it, to be honest, in many ways its a relief, I've had two years of this and I'm just so tired and emotionally drained that I cant do it anymore, I need to take care of me and that is what I'm concentrating on, I owe it to myself after these two years riding tandem in the dark place, cant do it anymore and I dont want to. If there is no recognition of the mood disorder and positive steps to deal with it, I dont see how anyone can stay with this, its just too difficult, it isnt because I didnt love him enough, I love him with my whole heart, but i also love myself and its taken me some time to remember that,
regards,
Erin