Believe it or not, I am 44. Uggh, there I said it. proptart, I know what you are saying about this experience turning us into teenagers. I feel the same. To feel that kind of love for someone in the first place makes me feel juvenile, then to not be a strong adult about the breakup is worse. What happened to me? My xdbf used to say he admired my strength when we were in the relationship. What was he talking about? I ask myself is this midlife crisis? But the relationship was not a fling, it lasted 6 good years, until one day it just disappeared. Why can't I be like men having midlife crisis-- just buy a new car and get on with my life already.