Dazed, I completely empathize with you. I had something very similar happen to me in September of last year that precipitated the whole thing. I had absolutely no idea that was going to happen. And it was on the day we were going out to fancy dinner to celebrate our 6 year anniversary!! I literally felt the ground below me fall out. Today I cried because I remembered how my xdbf used to leave his things around at my place so that I would be reminded of him. He wanted me to think of him then....now he has forgotten all about what we had together. I mean he has not once reached out to ask how I have been doing. When I think about what he did/said to the other girl, I know I can never trust him again even if he came back. But most of the time I just remember how good things were for 5.5 years. He was warmth and sunshine to me all those years. I thought it was real but now I am not sure. OMG, I sound like a teenager again, don't I?