Dazed,

"His actions were so unlike him, texting some skanky woman, and avoiding me to do it." Totally my case, too. The worst part of my experience was that she solicited him to say bad things about me for her own validation, and he went along with it!! Never in my life did I think he could say some of the things he was willing to say about me to another woman who barely knows him and has never met me. My heart was broken right then and there. They hung out in the evenings. She invited herself to his place, to "get some advice". Apparently he sat around at work looking sad like he does often, and she and he made it sound like it was because he was unhappy with me. She told him she wanted to make him feel better. No, you bi$ch, he has depression and you don't know one thing about it. I was there through his angry tantrums, frustration, cold silence, withdrawal, anxiety attacks when I just held him in my arms. And you think you can make him feel better? I was livid. He told me he was just playing games with her. Wow.

Why then do I still think about him and miss him? It was so shocking that part of me still thinks that it was a nightmare or a one big mistake/misunderstanding. I just don't understand myself. It's so lame.