Hi ladies,

What a great thread-it really is such a relief that this place exists to fall on. I completely agree with all the sentiments re; "the other woman". It's all well and good to excuse the behaviour with the excuse that is depression (sorry, I'm in a bitter place today...can you tell?!) but we're not robots. Or therapists. Or doctors. Or their mum. We can't simply turn off OUR feelings of abandonment, betrayal, hurt and chaos and we shouldn't have to surely? Otherwise, if we start burying feelings, how long will it be before we are where they are.

Currently I can't see a way forward. Even with commitment to meds and therapy, I can see the pattern of running away, betrayal then sorrow and wanting to heal the damage caused and I can't ever see that changing. The hardest thing I'm finding is not allowing my imagination to travel back to all the good times. I need to focus on ME and MY future.