WW is coming along to our mani/pedi appointment. They have what's called gentleman's mani/pedi just for you.

I think it is important to acknowledge that we have emotions. In a relationship the feelings are supposed to reach and affect another person and come back. With a depressed partner, our feelings cannot get validated the same way.

When our DSOs choose to leave, there is no logic to it because the D has erased the trace of our emotional footprint on our partners and the relationship. We remember how good it was, how much love there was between us and our partners at one point. We all agree we don't want to lose our DSOs, we are willing to stay and do the fight if they want to stay and fight for themselves but when they choose to leave..... Our hopes and dreams are shattered and we have no say in it. We wait, hoping they will come to their senses, but how long of a wait is long enough?

In my case, I don't think my xdbf will come back especially because I know he feels a lot of guilt over how it went down. He won't even have the courage to apologize, let alone come back to reclaim the relationship. He will want to just sweep it under the rug, hoping that he does better next time, with someone new. Whether it's the D or not, he has emotional issues that he refuses to face. I recognize it and wish he would too, acknowledge it, and wish he would choose to become emotionally healthier person...but he is far from it. Unfortunately it IS his choice and no matter how much I love him, I cannot change his decision. Really what I feel right now is...what a waste. Waste of love and waste of time. Can you tell that I am bitter?