Hi all,

@alicea, I'm right there alongside you, sounds as though we're at exactly the same point. I'm not so worried about bitterness, I'm accepting that the next few months is going to be my very own rollercoaster but it will be one of recovery and it'll be MINE. No more research, no more worrying about another more than me....I need to be my main focus from now on. It really is difficult not to feel as though it's been a waste. I haven't had children yet and would really like a family. If the last six years with DH now dramatically reduce my chances, not being bitter will be very hard. I then try to think of the nice times (and there were SO many of them) but that makes me too sad to focus on for too long.

@ww....hope your day hasn't been too much of a 'mare.....we love ya.

@dazed...I know just what you're saying-a bath feels a bit like putting a plaster on a broken leg sometimes doesn't it?!