thank You for such a quick response, At the moment i do not feel strong, I cry about 10 times or more day.. I hardly leave the house, unless its work.. I do work with him, and it takes all my energy to do my job, I keep it together there, but as soon as my car turns the corner, the tears already come, all I want to is run home, and hide in my house... The few friends I have, I been blocking... saying im fine, just no time... I just drove up the street, there is a pschiartrist office there, I went to the door , got the number and ran home again, got a apt for this week... I feel so freakin lost, and these tears have taken me over...