Erin,

You know that feeling when someone really GETS you? That feeling of connection? I guess that's what I felt with him a lot of the times, although now I have to acknowledge that maybe it was a one sided thing...I felt this great connection to him but maybe he didn't. But I still feel connected to him somehow.

I guess I just want to let him know that I understand. I always felt that I could understand what he was thinking or feeling even when he didn't express them. He didn't talk very much about himself. He doesn't talk much period. Yesterday I realized that he must have felt that being my boyfriend was all work and that I cannot ask him to do more work when he can't. This made me realize he will not come back. I don't know if he will ever feel bad enough about what he did to apologize.

Sorry this is all rambling. I can't organize my thoughts today. I don't know if he will respond. I don't expect him to. I don't want him to, if he is going to be angry. I guess I will think about it some more. The email is pretty short, only about 4 lines.