Okay….finally realized something….

ƒNo intimacy  x ((Me + depression for 8 years) + (Wife + living with depressed husband for 8 years))  / Poor communication = Growing apart for 8 years. 

I don’t know if this can be repaired.  I am …sadly…..repulsed by my wife….  I fear the ending or separation will be inevitable.  I know our relationship is not an equation, but this makes the most sense to me. 

I have to see doc in 2 weeks to confirm stability of medication.  If it is so, then a trial separation maybe due after telling her truth about OW and my change in feelings.

WW ( Don’t go the wrong way)