Sad day..

 

After completing my ‘homework’ for 8 hours …it looks like I settled for someone different than who I married. 

We have grown apart. 

Much of how we grow in life is determined by our environment and circumstances.

Cleary I have changed.

My wife has changed. 

Our needs have changed.

but we have not grown together. 

We have grown apart. 

It’s not a depression of manic thing.  Although depression has forced the barrier between us, depression alone is not the sole cause.  My wife is someone I can no longer be with as lovers.  I wish I could change this.  I wish I could change the way I feel.  I wish I wasn’t another %$!% story on this forum with the same usual ending. 

Someone said its about how we grow as human beings. 

Its not a couple’s counseling forum. 

It’s a depression fallout forum. 

I just happen to be on the other side of the tracks.  Just because of my illness does not mean I don’t hurt either by this decision. 

Now I can’t stop crying….this is now situational depression….

 

(sarcasm) great…..