I agree... I've got to that place where I can't see another option.

I'm flat, devastated, and somewhat accepting of it. It sucks... and it feels like your life gets destroyed. I've been dragged through my house by my pony tail by my father when I was only 6 years old.

NOTHING of the pain I've dealt with in the past compares to the hurt he has caused... to the embarrassment of losing him to a korean student.... to the agony of wishing I understood what the heck happened.

VG... I wish we could make the pain go away. You are amazing and strong, I look forward to getting stronger myself

Erin... I wish you didn't have to go through the acceptance of all this moving away nonsense. It's so unfair.

WE are just trying to make our way through it all, blindfolded. Luckily we are amazingly strong. Sometimes I still sit in bed wondering what on earth happened... and I guess I'll never know - I don't want to risk the pain of asking...

I have bad dreams about him saying hurtful things to me. It's amazing how much power he still has...