Hi Fuffy, he has made the decision for me - he is moving away, so I no longer have any hope that this is reversible - I dont expect any response, no, because he has made it clear he is moving on with his life in a direction that has no place for me so why would he? There are things I feel I need to say, for my own sake and not having an opportunity to say those things is bothering me - it feels 'unfinished' not closed out - do you know what I mean?