Thanks DSH, this is what happens when your stuck at home with a gammy leg! I really feel like a weight has been lifted from me. He has said what he needs to say through his actions and I have said what I needed to say in words. It is done and there is no coming back from this, I have spent over 2 years of my life on this, trying to do the right thing, trying to be supportive, encouraging and trying to be there and it all amounted to nothing, because nothing I was ever going to do was going to make a difference and for that reason I felt I had to say my piece and be done and now I have. He may well delete the email without reading it, I dont know, I told him I expected no response, so he doesnt have to feel this is entering a conversation, it was just about me really, and for once I wanted to be selfish. Is that so awful? I hope not, after over 2 years of it being all about it him, today, it was all about me and now I am done - God, that feels so liberating!
hugs,
Erin