Oh Ange, thank you (again). In some ways, non communication is my way of 'controlling' the situation, so that I don't feel that it is all his decision. Some sort of weird reverse psychology I'm sure but ... Interesting that you mention a text around you wish he'd have hit you instead of this ... I sent one almost identical in my 'flurry' of texts. Appalling for me too, and I'm sure for him to receive it, as he is not a violent man and I remember him on a few occasions saying he would never be that way. I guess all it shows is that we reacted normally to a situation that has very little logic. However, it doesn't exactly fill me with pride. I'm not sure that he will come back if I'm honest. I have a feeling that he genuinely thinks this is the best, for me too ... oh well, I will continue to wait until I suppose I wake up and I'm no longer waiting but hopefully living my life again. I'm getting there Ange ... slowly. As I'm sure you know, it feels like treading water ... not all that successfully!!!!