Thanks Miss S. I honestly think that they will be so helpful for you. It helps you to give a voice to your emotions. Today she made me start to realise that what I feel is real, and that it is ok and normal. Over this whole experience to date, I've been rationalising and intellectualising what's been happening. Logically, everything that happens makes sense ... especially if you understand and have done lots of research into depression. But in doing so, I've not dealt with the emotions that I am ALLOWED TO FEEL. I can't work these out with the person who I want to (because he can't), therefore she will help me to do this. The first session I had didn't really give me all that much. To be honest, I was such a wreck. Also, I got very angry about her wanting to bring up things such as my parent's divorce when I was 12 (I'm a 33!!). However, today was much more constructive and I am starting to see how my past has affected how I am dealing with things now. Interesting point, as I think that perhaps I have something in common with my (ex) dbf - I think that much of his depression is related to his relationship with his father and his death. She is helping me to understand why he is acting the way he is, validating my thoughts and offering some alternates. More than anything, I just feel relieved that I am not going crazy. It is ok to still be in love with him, despite him acting terribly to me etc etc You don't fall out of love overnight. Friends are well meaning, but they don't understand depression and all they see is someone they love being treated badly ... I think with weekly sessions, it will help to ease the constant loop of thoughts that is going around and around in my head.

Miss S ... only strong people admit when they need some additional help and support. That's you and me. You make sure to look after you too ... at least the sun is kinda out!