Wow Mino... That's a tough one! Your head is saying one thing, but your heart is saying another. I was enjoying what you wrote though when you said that you can breath and laugh again and that your tears have dried up from the new guy, that's really nice!

I think one of the most important things you need to ask yourself is, could you deal with the possibility of going through Fallout again?! Unfortunately, it could happen again... Once was enough for me, and I know I never want to feel this way ever again.