I really just miss him. And it's so hard cause to me I can tell he loves me still and is in denial...I wanted a second chance because he made me crazy in the last 2 months we were together, texting all the time we were together- and other women no less, they were friends and he let me read his text messages. He was hiding stuff before (in th e past) when he had a D episode and I knew he was sneaking back into one, and I was kinda crazy trying to do everything I could to pull him back into me. But he was happy in some of the months he said he wasn't- it was just the 2 before we broke up. And it definitely wasn't me. It was his apartment, his roommate, job and bills. He wasn't making enough money and I couldn't visit him cause he couldn't buy food. I hate fallout. But everything in my heart and mind is screaming that he will come back to me. We were so compatible in every way. We made plans for our future to do things together, it's just that he stressors external from me got the best of him. I'd take him back in a heartbeat. I really would- because he makes me happy.

and everything screams he still does care, he just can't connect with the emotions.