It's just so confusing. And my intuition is telling me that he still has feelings for me. I do make myself happy, it's just that I love him so much and I loved his attention and caring.

It's just...the D. It made everything terrible. Made him think he isn't worthy of me. Made him sad and stressed. Despite everything I know it wasn't us he was unhappy about. I know because I feel it. I knew he was pulling away but I now know it wasn't me. I was doing everything for him, everything he wanted me to. So it doesn't make any sense. I know he still loves me, we have so much history together.

Fact of the matter is that it is out of my hands. I have to wait for him to come around.