Sufferinggf. Trust what everyone is saying. We all know its the depression but you dso doesnt. He believes its the new him now. Whatever you think or feel is no longer relevant. Depression has him and may never let him go.
As ange and jj have said the conversation u have had is repeated by all our dso, how many of us are encouraging you too sit and wait. Noone because the future is now unknown. Stop, drop and roll. If you continue this way you will also become ill.