I would like to add that he realizes he needs help, unlike some of the stories I am reading. And he gets distant, but never mean. And when I really really do need him, he IS there for me. As much as he can be with the distance and depression. He's also never said he wants to separate. The last he has said to me about it, is that he thinks he just needs to come here when he is able and as soon as he can, to spend time with me, see if we still have the connection we've always had, and to start over, and asked if I could forget all the past stuff and just start over with him. He wants to try, he really does. That is the main thing that keeps me going. A couple weeks ago, things felt a little better. This week though, he's been more distant, something happened that he wont share that is stressing him out. And so this week I feel like I personally am regressing a bit. As long as I see him trying, as long as he doesn't just give up on himself and on us, I can't give up either.