Hi Erin, thank you for your reply x He went to the Doctor a few months back as he has a few physical symptoms that have been brought on by stress and low immune system but he wouldn't mention the mood as he doesn't agree with me that it's depression.  He just thinks he wants to end our marriage and that's it.  He thinks that his thoughts about splitting up our family are causing his low mood but won't accept that the depression is causing his negative thoughts at all.  The holiday has just brought it all to the surface as he wanted me to cancel it in January this year and tell the children that Daddy won't be able to have one this year.  I didn't think because of all the things he was saying that he would even be here by then so I booked it for the 3 of us instead.  Now its come around and was still here (albeit in body only), he has had to face what he is doing to our family because he has to tell the children and his Mum and Dad and everyone else that knows that he isn't coming so I can see its putting him under immense stress.  However his attitude to this is that he will just walk away, and I know a lot of that is anger towards me for going ahead.  He is so stubborn.  I'm hoping that by being away he will come to his senses but I know that depression doesn't just fall away like that.  I also know that if he doesn't want me, it will confirm it so I'm prepared for that too.